This saying is something God gave me early on as a reminder to myself every single time I wanted to compare myself to somebody or I was embarrassed about something silly or my insecurities wanted to scream in my ear and I would just tell myself that over and over and over again until one day I realized I actually believed what I was saying. For so many years, I was a different person every week. I was never content and happy with myself and I allowed jealousy and comparison to set in and I would base everything I did off of somebody else. Even as far as what color I got my nails done. Yeah, I know crazy. It became so exhausting trying to be all these different people but preach this message about how loved you are and it was so easy to tell everyone else how they don’t need to change, but I didn’t believe it myself. Until one day I felt God just showing me areas of my life where I was giving other people the position and place that God needed to be in. I was letting them be my source and not him. I was losing sleep, I was losing peace, I felt like I was going crazy and I finally had to surrender and let go of those things that I believed were not harmful to me, and little did I know they were slowly erasing me. Choosing to mimic and carry other people’s special qualities cause I was insecure of my own was erasing the things that made me unique. Then it hit me like a brick wall that I was slowly doing this to myself. The Lord opened my eyes to it. I will be honest with you, it was so deep that I didn’t even know what color I liked because I was so busy trying to be trendy and cool and copy everyone else’s. I was so afraid of not being accepted by people that I tried to be them instead and God showed me that it was time for me to stop looking at people and start looking at him. So I did. I began to make God my best friend and him my foundation of everything and when I did that, I began to be me. I began to discover gifts that God had given me, I began to lose care about what people thought about me, I began to walk freely in my identity and most important I began to use my God-given authority. I didn’t realize that me giving my identity away gave a wide-open door for the devil to sweep in and speak to me. All he did was speak lies about how I was alone, no one would accept me and like me for me, I needed to try to be like her to be more likable, etc. Although I allowed the enemy to have a lot of room that he didn’t need to have, I let him convince me that everything I prayed was useless. He had convinced me that I had no authority and made me feel powerless. When God showed me all that I had allowed, I had to repent and ask him for forgiveness and I gave the enemy no more room. He had made me so mad, that I had allowed him to come in and create this swirl of lies that I walked in every day, and I shut every door I had opened to him. And he better know that I am gonna make him regret everything he ever did to me and my family because not only now do I know my identity in God, but I am CONFIDENT in my identity in God and I now am confident in knowing I carry the power and authority of God and I am a child of God and there is nothing he can do to take that away from me. So my goal with this is to share the freedom that I now walk in with others and encourage and remind people of the power they carry being a child of God and how powerful it is to know your identity in Christ. The world doesn’t need a bunch of bodies with the same gifts and qualities, but the world needs God-fident (God confident) people using the unique and individual gifts that God gave them, and it’s about time to start expanding the kingdom of heaven and shutting down the kingdom of darkness. God didn’t mess up when creating you and giving you all your unique and individual gifts and qualities! So be who GOD created you to be, confidently!
there is no better person to be than who God created you to be.
-grace
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